Simplicity is NOT Simple

I’m finding it’s actually the most challenging for of feminine surrender for me. My brain likes to be in hyperdrive, and with that superpower of intellectual capacity comes a sever cost: an inability to see the simple way of anything when it presents itself unless I run myself ragged past all the over complicated options first.

But I am starting to see that while over complication can be fun, it’s exhausting and absolutely unnecessary.

Also, if I am truly residing in the Heart rather than the Head, then the spaces that are simple feel untrue…because they are.

Two places I’m taking this right now so you know where the path is winding: inner child, and feminine flow.

“I like complicated Claude,” Jamie said. The above kids were running away to the metropolitan museum of art in New York and I adored this story as a child. Especially the way Jamie, the little brother, likes to make all his sister Claudia’s plans as complicated as possible just for fun. Claudia likes luxury. She likes art, and extravagance, but not complications. They are basically the spheres of Hod and Netzach on the tree of life, respectively. If you know what I am talking about, great. If you don’t, let me elaborate.

Jamie is the masculine intellect that revels in simply unraveling plans and making new ones, while also throwing in like, 22 other plot lines just for fun and the mayhem of confusing other people.

Claudia is the feminine appreciation of sensuality and sensation. She wants to be present with her feelings and emotions. Her goal is to be among the most beautiful, lovely, and refined things.

I never understood until I was re-reading this book for thousandth time, but for the first time to my sons, that my brain actually works like Jamie’s way more often than it does like Claudia’s. I like complications. I like untying knots. I like to see what other stories I can cram into the one I’m working on and see if I am able to somehow find my through line by the end.

This operating from the masculine mind is my inner child’s first and best line of defense. I was praised and accepted for it, and not for when I wanted expensive things, beautiful things, or simple things. So to feel more loved, I walked deeper and deeper into the labyrinth of my mind and invited others to follow. I realized very young that I would be more admired (and therefore feel more accepted, safe and significant) if I had the strongest brain and wasn’t just a “pretty face.” My pretty face was a detriment because it was the opposite of what was expected, so I tried to defy all expectations and be as smart, witty and well written as I could. It became so common that I thought it was “just how my brain works.”

Yet…

The more work I’ve done with embodying the feminine, the more I’ve realized it’s not. It’s me operating from the misaligned masculine energy within. I was trying to protect myself (masculine) and did it as best as I could as a child until I didn’t realize I was trying anymore.

Which brings me to the feminine flow.

Tapping into the feminine can be simplicity itself, but that’s not always the easiest thing when one is used to over complicating everything.

I was doing an exercise to create an offer that really and truly makes my heart sing yesterday but I was coming up against wall after wall and nothing felt like it would be exciting anymore. I didn’t want to teach a class, create a course, do any marketing, or even be away from my kids. All I wanted to do was draw.

And ⚡️idea

I can just draw. I’m going to draw these goddesses for my book and Oracle deck anyway, so why not offer everyone a chance to pay to watch me do it? Considering all the options felt exciting and alive and fun! I knew I had hit on it and wondered how I got there.

I saw how my feminine powers of creativity, desire and flow offered the simple answer. My brain didn’t like it at first because it seemed “too simple.” How could this possibly be “it” if it was so easy?! I understood then that I had been thinking my way around simplicity rather than through it—I had been running away from easy answers because it would mean letting go of the mechanism that my inner child used as a self defense tool. I would have to surrender (feminine) to the simple truth.

I realized I had dropped into my heart and my desires, because only they are aligned with truth. The line of questioning was:

• what do I want?

• What do I feel excited about doing?

• How can I follow that easily and effortlessly?

With all of that was the understanding for my sweet hyperactive brain palace that it can find better ideas if it consults the heart first and foremost, and doesn’t over complicate things.

What about you? Do you play around more with one of these energies than the other?

I bet you will find lots of ways to play with the feminine and masculine in you!

Xo

Amy

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